Just a few weeks in TJC, and i realise something about myself. I must believe in myself, for i can do so much more than i think i can. Take SC for example, pulling out was one of the worst experiences of my life, and writing that letter in was really a brave action. I am sorry if that latter made some councilors cry or demoralized. I am sorry if u think i am just someone who cannot take the pressure and complain about the idea. In fact, the reasons i pulled out of SC is in fact i think that the whole council has a different vision and mission from mine, and i dun think i can work in those environments.

Over these few weeks, after english fair vodcast , after orientation, after all those thinking about SC , i am starting to few tired. Really tired. I may be full of vibe and appear so happy, but it is different on the inside. Things are so much more different in JC and its like making a hop to get pass to the other side of the grand canyon.

Luckily, i have spiritual support in the school. Friends are there for me all the time. I must really thank you all for being such great friends, comforting me when im down, being crazy together when high. I have also found one friend whom i am largely similar to, but not in terms of character. He is much much more innocent than i am. He is Yuan Song. But to why we are similar, I am not supposed to say since he wants to keep it a secret.

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